Fire and Links

Earlier I was sitting around watching tv, basically doing nothing, when all of a sudden I had this incredible urge to play with fire. It came really out of nowhere too, I mean I had just been watching Titanic with my mom and now I wanted manipulate flames? Fire represents passion, energy, aggression...not sappy love stories with mommy. But my mom had long gone to bed at this point so I figured hey, why not go give into my current craving. So I went upstairs and lit a whole bunch of candles and sat there staring at them for a while, wondering what it was I wanted to do because I wasn't sure why I was being drawn to them in the first place. So I'm sort of stare at the desk for a while, move all the candles around into one place and make this one giant fire out of it basically. Then I did something pretty stupid and put my hands above the candles and yeah, it hurt a lot. But then my hands were extremely hot and I figured why not use the energy while I'm still holding onto it? I back away from the candles and stand on the other side of my room, using my fingers as human candles. They burst into flames and I began shooting fireballs all over the room, turning it into my own miniature version of hell, and I feel like the devil.

Then I start thinking about my fiance and how passionate I am about her, and moments later she calls me to tell me she's extremely angry and wants to seek revenge on a former friend of ours. Now my fiance is the sweetest girl I know, but when she gets angry she flares up and attacks. Basically...you don't get in her way at this point because she's most likely out to destroy you. And I'm thinking to myself how my very sudden thought of her brought on a phone call, which only happens with people you're linked with, or have a very close bond with. I realized then that my intense and very random urge to manipulate fire was directly linked with her intense anger and desire to destroy a person. Her thoughts and feelings matched my wants and actions and vice versa. So there's a pretty good example of what it's like to be linked to someone. And playing with fire is always fun too.